Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Complicated!

Quite some times ago, I think I heard (again, somehow my memory seems very weak at recalling) the highest-ranked person in the government once said that the government servants should not blame each other for any weakness they encountered. That time, every one nodded their head as a sign of agreement. That was the time before I joined the government sector, I think. Then, in 2007, I stepped into the world of "government servants" as an educator (but as an untrained). I assumed that the working atmosphere would be something that I imagined; every one worked close to each other, supporting and looking at every one's back. It was like that during the first 2 years.

But lately, blame games, inter-department or inter-ministry blame seems really popular among government servants. I think the subject is just too immense to be discussed here. Let's narrow down the subject: intra-department or intra-ministry blame. This means, people who are working under "the same roof", having the same boss, serving the same people and doing the same thing are having out with each other. It is just complicated. I can't understand how this could happen. I narrow it down to those who works under the wing of the Ministry of Education.

There's one person who happen to lead a good life with his own way. Maybe he is too comfort with his own way, he didn't see how others are doing. I've read some of his comments online regarding teaching profession (well, he is also a teacher, apparently). I admit that he is good in teaching his own children with his own methodologies. Maybe because of his home-bounded successes, he refuse to look at others. His refusal led him to give out arrogant and sometimes immature comments, hence took control of his thoughts, assuming there's no other better people than his own family. Sometimes, he even causes stirs.

Judging by his comments, I made a hypothesis (mind you, a hypothesis isn't a conclusion) telling that this guy haven't gone out of his comfort zone. He always claim that he achieved various successes with his methods. Whilst he is good, why don't he shift his running gear and help others who seem frail and stutter while he still can? But all he did was blaming, where blaming, for me, never solve a problem. For me, if you feel that you're good enough, the gravest mistake that you commit is to keep the goodness only to yourself. It is rather an ethic misconduct than a sin.

I admit that I am not good enough as him, as I have never tested my own methods on my own kids, because I haven't had even one. But I actually want to meet this guy in person in order to make him share a thing or two. Maybe I could adopt and adapt his methodologies into my practice wherever I see fit. But based on my hypothesis, this guy seems reluctant to share, where teachers are encouraged to share good things between each other for the betterment of their practice, and also for the sake of the students. Maybe he feels that he is sharing, but with his own way.

Man was created to be a very flexible creature for their own survival. For me, I would suggest that he be flexible for his own good, and also for the good of others. Make a step back to gain two steps forward. He needs to alter his ego, be less egocentric.

May he read my posting. May he take this as a call for a change. May I can be as good as him. May I become less egocentric.

Sunday, July 4, 2010

Unleaded...

Another weekend is passing by. A weekend supposed to be the time to take some rests out of work. But that is almost impossible for me to do - resting properly.

I am not a workaholic that spend the day working like there's no tomorrow. My body isn't as strong as 10 years ago. A friend of mine verbally confirmed that I am contracted with migraine, but still in the early stage. I met him two nights ago, and told him the symptoms that I have been enduring in these 3 weeks. Though he isn't a doctor, he is a medical assistant in local hospital, and he has decent knowledge about symptoms of various common diseases. He also told me to skip caffeine-related drinks.

For a matter of time, I have to give up my favourite black coffee, as it contains an inconsiderable amount of caffeine that might worsen my migraine. If it concerns my health, then I have to leave it for a while.

For the next 10 weeks, I consider the situation will not be helpful. There will be insufficient resting hour, unbalanced diet and unhealthy lifestyle, due to the training course that I take to acquire a teaching license.

Those who read this writing, I hope you will not be like me. You have to lead not only a healthy lifestyle, but also a healthy mind and soul. I'm sure you'll be able to get through almost everything if you keep the 3 important things of your body healthy: the body, the heart and the mind.