Urgh...Tired

The moment I wrote this post I had already finished the class. Sitting on my chair head staring skyward and leg crossed and being put on another chair just to feel the let off of a week's burden. I took a deep breath followed by a long sigh. I wasn't aware how tired I was until the sigh was over. I wanted to take a nap but my eyes just couldn't close. I wanted to stand and take a walk but my mind told me not to. That's what we call laziness; when lactic acid conquered your muscle you still have some wills to go. But once it conquered your brain you'll discover a world of your own where nobody exists except you.

Been a long week, though t'was just 5 days passed by. I was so worked out and worn out that I hope Saturday will come after this minute. But one's tiredness never changes the time, neither forward nor backward.

One thing over another thing comes lurking around, comes into my book and stab and jab my body and wills. Those things are the thing that keep me moving. Actually they didn't move me at all, but I moved them around at my own pace. It seemed like they were too fast, but they actually hadn't even picked the 3rd gear. Maybe I stressed the 2nd gear they looked too fast in everyone's eyes. The way I drive things is totally different from the way people move things.

There come the works. I want to have my rest.

It's Been A Week...

...since the new year stepped into our path. A lot of good things happened in the first week, and I hope that this good week will continue its momentum up until the next 51 weeks. I'm trying to keep up my good mood, stay positive, be kind and helpful to others when I still can. I can't afford to see myself as the one who was in 2009. I'm trying not to cross the boundary that I've set between the new me and the old one.

For some reasons, there are some bad habits that I still bring along from past years. Kicking bad habits is hell of an effort. Not just efforts, but courage must be tagged along. I managed to kick a little bit part of them, and I feel pretty good with that.

I'm also trying to put out my addiction to internet. I found that being addicted to internet was one of my major problems. I always look at internet as a main source of knowledge, but I never looked into books. Recently, I bought 2 novels that brought me some taste into my boring life.

I always reverend my boring life that everyone sometimes ask me to seek a company. Naah, they could only talk, but they don't know how to deal with my boring life. Suggestions came a lot, and in simple. But how simple they come, is the same as the simple they gone, just like a soft wind passing by your face; it doesn't linger around you, never leaves a mark and is easy to be forgotten.

For this time being, I just want to focus on my career and how I progress during the current year. Don't worry, people. The time for me to have a company will come. And when the time comes, I'll cherish the moment as the most precious one.

:)